Update!!!

So I flew home on Sunday.. got there about 1 am Monday.. It was nice waking up to my nieces and having them sit next to me on the couch .. It was nice knowing I was somewhere that I was loved. Me and Amy (my sister in law) jumped in the focus around 10 and took off on our three hour drive to Troy. I was really nervous but.. I played it off pretty well haha. I started to really believe Randy and Amy that I wouldn’t get in a lot of trouble and wouldn’t do jail time.. well.. big surprise when I got there.

I turned myself into probation, they told me to wait in the hall way outside.. then I heard them call my name.. next thing I know Im in cuffs.. the judge couldn’t see me so because I was a flight risk I had to go to jail till the judge could see me the next day.

It sucked… It sucked now knowing anything, not being able to talk to my sister in law.. just being escorted past her while she sits in a court house in a town she had never been too… When I was being booked I got to get naked in front a lady cop.. then had to take a shower and put there wonderful jail outfits on with the ugly shoes.. my hair was a mess and no make up… (not that I hadn’t done that before. WILDWOOD and Canada) … I got to stay in what they call ‘The pent house’ cell.. It was huge.. about 12 girls.. two rooms connected three bathrooms and a shower and a TV (not that I watched it lol). The girls were.. well nice.. but some you could tell had been doing a lot of drugs .. one was pregnant and the other were older woman… All they talked about what getting out.. when and how they might get out sooner and men.. men men men. It was pathetic and sad.. They actually had church but I didn’t go.. I couldn’t.. not that I was refusing God or anything like that.. but I really just wanted to spend my own time with God.. I prayed a lot and all in all I still loved him and wasn’t mad at him at all for putting me in this situation.. I loved him almost more.. J Sleeping was hard.. it was hard when the toilets are open to the public and the flush is soo loud the whole building I swear can hear it.. and the girls stayed up really late.. So when breakfast at 530 am happened I was beat… Then around 730 am.. they called me out to go to court.. I really thought I was out of there… grrr…

I went with this other girl down to the Rec. room. (a cement room with two medal benches along the walls a desk and the tv and video camera were you go before the judge on camera).. I sat down and then another girl and guy came in.. then while talking to my public defender.. I hear two more guys come in.. when I go to sit down this guy is sitting next to where I was sitting.. I don’t look at him and then I hear.. “Why the hell are you here.” WEIRD.. I look and its this kid Lance who I use to love … lol.. I knew him when he was 16 and he use to just hang out at my apt. randomly.. I loved the kid he was so sweet and nice and respectful… now hes in jail.. it was cool though because I always wondered what happened to him.. I got his address and am going to keep in touch with him.

Now Im on camera in front of the judge.. he is nothing but nice to me but doesn’t know enough info to let me go and give me a punishment.. so now im back in that stupid cell. He set a bond for 5000 at 10 percent (500 dollars).. around 12 I wake up to someone telling me to pack up. I leave .. finally!! I see Amy and we go eat and talk.. I have court at one.. I don’t get to see the judge face to face till 230. When I do.. it was weird.. he asked me a lot of questions about Joshua and if it changed me and about Israel.. after saying he was going to give me fines (over 2000 dollars) and that if its not paid that day Ill have to do jail time.. and then going silent.. he says.. “Im not giving you any fines.. just your court fees.. that just has to be paid today and you can go.” .. HE LET ME OFF.. Amy and Randy paid 314 dollars for my court fees.. and that’s it.. no probation.. not jail time.. not FINES! God IS AWSOME! I love him.. I love him more than anything in this world.. he is my BEST FRIEND.. its crazy.. because even talking to my close friends.. Amy, Candice and Krista… in the end.. God is all I need.. I love them. But its different now. They arnt my center..

I went back home for the rest of week and it was so nice to be with family… and see Amy and Krista ( she came home for the week from Germany so visit before Ryan goes to Iraq for 15 months).. it was awesome seeing here.. it was even cooler when she told me she was moving back to Copley in April while Ryans in Iraq.. God is soo good.. Hes giving me good friends to be with… To have when I come home.. Im so excited I love her so much.. and I cant wait to have her back in my every day life… Ive missed her so much..

Hmmm… Im ready for Joshua to be over though.. I love it but Im so excited to go home and have a family .. and a new life.. That is so given to me by God..

Hmmm.. John Fleming just told me he would have been so sad if I left.. the other people that left he didn’t really care but me… he said he would of hated it.. I love that.. how Im loved here… I know the other people who left were too but.. they were really quite and didn’t initiate relationships with people… anyways.. its just nice to be home and have people miss me. Joshua 07-08 class is my family.